hey, is that you in there?

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hey little one, 
i think i felt you move the last few days.

oddly enough i was talking to pal, melanie 
(my photographer, remember her?!)
and inquiring about what these little movements will feel like.
i didn't think i had felt anything.
but, that night as i lay in bed i laid quietly and just paid attention and breathed.
all i could hear were the fans 
(btw, the AC is out in our house in this lovely 90d weather. 
clearly if you were here in the flesh we wouldn't make you sleep through it, 
but for now we are roughing it ha!)
but yes, my breathing and the fans.
and some feelings of pop pop pop.
so subtle.
i think it's you in there.

this week in my email update from babycenter
it said i may be able to feel you, but not to worry bc first time momas may not know.
def not worried, but the site described it can feel like little popping popcorn 
so 
i'm pretty sure it was you kid.
can't wait to feel more "hellos"
hope you are enjoying your time in there. 
make yourself comfortable - you still have a while to cook up, 
but thanks for making yourself known.


Comments

katie said…
little nugget, if you are anything like your mom and dad, this is just the beginning of you needing to move. you are coming into an active and very in shape family!
10/6/11
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