what momma writes

i'd be pretty naive to think my pregnancy and body would just be the way  i wanted the whole way through. all and all it's been a smooth ride. all the normal stuff in the beginning and now we've been in a groove for some time and we are getting into the getting even larger stage for Tri III- and that is all fine and good. i am satisfied with where i am at - where we are going and how we are getting there. i do have to say over the last week or so i have noticed some uninvited guests. i am pretty in tune with my body and  i tend to inspect it a lot more now that i am ever changing. not in a vain way, but in a curious, what is going on and what is new today sort of way. lately i have noticed a little of this on my thighs and a little extra of this on my arms not to be misunderstood. im not complaining- just voicing and documenting things in pregnancy and when they happen for me. ive been very lucky so far. i exercise regularly i still eat healthy minus a few minis of ...

i used to have an HSA account. post December 2010 the rules were changing  and zero OTC drugs were to be purchased on my lovely card. so, i decided to take matters into my own hands. i binged. i went to target and stocked up on: prenatals, ibuprofen and multi vitamins etc. now pregnant i can't take advantage of all the ibuprofen. i'm sure john will do his fair share. i had a few headaches and they passed. but a few weeks ago i had a spliiiiiiiiiiiiiting one. not a migraine  (well i don't think it was as i haven't had one before and thought i would know if i have one) but a really bad headache. the kind you go to bed with and wake up with. i was talking to friend, amanda about this issue and she recommended  the one the only Tiger Balm. amanda instructed me to rub a lil dab on my temples and sit in cool air. i felt instant relief. instant. this has seriously been my saving grace for any inkling of a headache. careful the amount you use though. my skin peeled a lit...

as i sit here and write this, i pretty much am chalking this up to a week of bad symptoms. don't get me wrong  i am excited and thrilled beyond belief about you,  but i'd be lying if i said pregnancy was all sexy.  if you know me, you know i suck at lying.  you also know that i will call you out if i think you need to be called out on.  not really into enabling... soooo friends, i am not going to sit here and tell myself that these things are all fun times all the time. with that- the not so sexy list: 1. starvation at 3-4a.m. 2. puking or naus at 3-4a.m. 3. having conversations with yourself at 4 a.m. that 1 kid has got to be enough - right? 4. peeing 2,000,444,546 a night. 5. eating ALL the effing time - i swear you are a hypoglycemic child. (i blame your dad). 6. daydreaming about a potty seat in your bedroom. 7. your "used to be" end of the day weight being your morning starting weight. people brag about how you get to eat whatever you want and eat them a...

ok nugget, i don't really have cravings... yet. but, uh don't tell anyone about all the pizza i've been eating. it's our little secret, ok? i can't seem to get enough of this stuff. and milk and cheese and mac and cheese. apparently i have a thing for cheese. but hey, that's nothing new.

no no, i am NOT talking about the song from the Lion King, i am talking about breasts. holy cow. i mean, i never was a busty person and you know, to be honest i am still not. BUT for me holy cow. for the first time in my life i am experiencing what it is like to have breasts. large boobicles just don't run in the family so i knew from the start i wouldn't have much going on in that department. in high school and maybe some of college i may have been a teeny bit insecure of the lack of mounds in my frontal region, but i pretty much got over that.  i mean, high school is like the epitome of insecurity so if that is the largest worry i had, shit that's fine. next time you see me and check out my jugs you may laugh at this entry. that's fine. but, i will say i am not so sure i am envious of the larger breasted population any more due to figuring out some cons that i never experienced before. Pros of breasts: 1. you can fill out some clothing/bras a little better. Cons of...

seriously. i don't know what i was thinking when i said i would be lucky enough to breeze right through the nausea and be one of the "lucky" ones. i guess my positive thinking can take itself to the shitter. all and all i really shouldn't complain much, but i'm ready and willing to welcome trimester #2 with open arms whenever it feels like arriving. i don't want to wish anything away, but on the same token not really into every day being the unknown of when i will feel good or not so good. unpredictability. ooooof. the good news is that having symptoms reminds me that you are still there,  releasing new hormones in my body, ...  making me feel ill lol, but also doing what you need to do to become a healthy baby in the end. my office mates are wonderful, my future boss couldn't be more supportive if she tried, family and friends are praying for you and me every day and your daddy certainly comes around and does what i need when i need it. even though i...

we had a great morning with our potential midwife - 90 minutes of chatting and Q / A. we haven't officially signed a contract, but i knew she would be my first choice as i already spent a week with her. i still wanted to make sure john felt good moving forward with her as well.   despite the torrential rains the morning was off to a great start and i didn't feel naus!  this little meeting tho let it set in as more of a reality check. i don't know how i want to describe this, but i feel like i have to watch my emotions. everything i feel or get upset over in turn our little grape feels. when i got really heated and upset this morning i felt awful about putting such negatively charged energy to nugget. i don't think i have got so upset over something before to the point where i felt this horrible after. i felt like i was inappropriately arguing in front of my child. it hit home that everything i do in pregnancy and into parenthood has the potential to affect our child. h...

your dad was off today and i have to give him kudos on his productivity level. i haven't been feeling as good lately which has interrupted my productivity and increased my sleep which in turn takes valuable time away from my "to do" list. daddy was a rockstar today. i have listed some of the ways. typically i make the grocery list. buy the groceries. plan the weekly meals. i have been having aversions to meat which has complicated things in the buying and eating dinner department along with washing dishes that have meat remnants on them.  i started a grocery list and delegated that john better make some creative decisions at the store. again. due to some recent naus i am trying to increase my protein from the below helpful naus tips. john introduced me to our blender. and it is my newest best friend.  cup of milk-scoop of protein powder-banana or strawberry = in minutes your own smoothie and 28g of protein to mark in the books. i have been mentally thanking your dadd...

if you know me well, then you know i love to brush my teeth. don't remember when this started, but if i have a bad taste in my mouth it gets to me...  i carry my toothbrush / paste everywhere with me.  it is imperative that these items travel with me.  and if i only have toothpaste i will figure out a way to make it work. obsession?  sure.  if i have a headache, brushing my teeth makes it better.  if i feel naus, brushing my teeth makes me feel better.  if i can feel the plaque or coating on my teeth, i must brush.  it just grosses me out. im just being honest. however - lately, i have had the attack of the killer toothbrush.  things have changed.  i used to be able to rival the killer toothbrush, but since nugget is growing it has been a not so great experience while brushing.  tear.  i gag. and gag. and gag and gag and gag.  john thought i was vomiting on multiple occasions lately.  it's either the k...

i'm trying to not write every post on how i feel, but i realize this will be a good diary to fall back on for other babies and a way for me to vent so excuse all the personal symptom posts.  t hey won't last forever. (god, at least i hope they won't!) so i guess i have some morning sickness. maybe i am in denial and don't want to completely admit it, but the past couple of mornings i have felt like crapola. yes i have felt worse with the flu, but just waking up with the feeling that you could puke at any moment. it's not every morning, but it's been most recent ones.  i have found that sleeping in a little longer helps and jogging in open air. so i have been doing both. have to admit it has infringed on my work schedule of 2 jobs.  getting in the office @ 730 am is not coming easy if at all.  i'm still managing both, but working later or more jacked up hours to make up for "lost" time. what i have been experiencing more regularly than morni...

It is so weird how I went from being hungry ALL the time to a dis-interest in food and have random gaggy-ness all in 2 days. That's all.

Dear Nugget bar, Daddy and I went to the doctor yesterday and got the confirmation we needed  (well, I guess I didn't need, but we got it anyway haha).  You are a pretty solid 7 weeks. I go back in 10 weeks and will have to call our midwife  (... maybe today?!) to get started. Today has been weird though. I don't feel naus and I don't feel that intense hunger I was feeling all the time.  I hate the fact that I can't embrace today as just a day of feeling good rather than wondering why I don't feel bad. Doesn't that seem backwards? The past couple of weeks - boy oh boy was I ravenous every 2 hours or so. It was the weirdest thing, I felt like a baby needing to nurse. If I didn't eat I would feel blah, but a few bites of a protein bar would do the trick and I'd be on my merry way.  The past 2 days I have felt some naus, but still pretty minimal.  I feel pretty lucky that I am able to function and jog and do yoga as I did pre pregnancy. Dr. Bowen sa...

...so far this is far from marathon training, but i have been getting hungry around 1030/11pm at night. not for a full meal, but just wanting something to curb the hunger. the last time i felt hungry for dinner #2 or a snack was when i was training for the nyc marathon. i remember feeling odd about eating before bed, but my body needed it. i don't want to go to bed growling because i feel like i am neglecting what needs to be fed and it's hard to sleep. i can't complain. i'd rather want me body to need more food from growing a human than vomiting or feeling the naus. again, still, so far so good. perhaps i will be one of the lucky ones so i can keep on keepin on. the last time i needed a second meal/snack that late was during my long training runs. i guess growing a human burns a lot of calories? or, uh, is using my energy not all just for me. time to get a snack. knock.on.wood. i have been eating really well. i don't believe in the whole "oh this cookie is...

I slept awful, little one. I peed probably 17 times (ok, well it felt like that...), my food was just sitting in my stomach all night long and the onion breath just wouldn't subside. last night we went to Lauren + Jim's for dinner and they had a slider bar! very delish if I may say so myself, but I overate and apparently should have shyed away from the onions. i think it was a mix of too much jalapeno cheese dip, caramelized onions on my burger and then onions in the feta salad as well. taking notes along the way so hopefully i don't binge on onions and dip again. i don't normally eat like that. i sure wish i took my camera to take a picture of the slider bar for this post. note to self, stop taking camera out of purse! missed opportunities. so i think it was my poor eating choices last night that made me feel ill, but i still feel the remnants today. i don't feel overly queasy, but i don't feel exactly normal so i am sitting here in wonderment if this is ...

So uh, I was having these sharp pains in my abdomen and I am not going to lie, it made me a little uneasy. Anything new in pregnancy has the possibility of being normal or bad and it's hard to decipher having never done this before. When the pain would come on I would just touch my tummy and rub it a little and breath to calm any fearful thoughts out. I ended up asking my sister and she mentioned it was probably Round Ligament Pain which basically is the uterus stretching and prepping for your baby and causes sharp pains in the abdomen. Always such a relief to know things are in the normal category. Although this often happens in the beginning of the second trimester it is not uncommon for it to occur before.

Last nite before bed your daddy and I were discussing conception dates – there are only 2 possibilities that, at the time, I didn’t think they were originally in the “window.” He confessed that after one of the coitus events he had a strong feeling the rest of the night and the whole next day that he got me pregnant. Intuition? Your daddy does have pretty strong feelings about things. So I think we are going to with that date. See you late November? I wonder if you will come on Aunt Roe, Uncle Bryan, Ryan, Great Grma M, Mia, Noema or Uncle Pat’s birthdays? You have a lot of people that you potentially may share a day with… Annnnnd, I told your Aunt Kath about you today. I went to see Annie’s soccer game and I knew if I saw Kath I wouldn’t be able to keep it in. And that was deemed true as soon as I got the opportunity! It’s such exciting news, but so fresh and new that it hasn’t sunk in for me (or daddy) either. I am trying to get used to writing mommy and daddy … doesn’t hurt to s...