what i love about being a moma

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lately i feel as if i have posted some blogs that may come across negative.

my hurdles category is my own journey through some parenting hoops
and i guess sometimes it feels good to write out the frustrations, learning and letting go.

i tend to be brutally honest and i could see this coming across negative.
(or maybe coming across as if need more sleep?)

anyway, i feel it is important to share how much i love my job.
i love motherhood.
just like all jobs this one isn't perfect. jobs can be difficult, and some parts you don't have to like.
at all.
and that is ok.

but the vast majority of motherhood, well, i'm a huge fan.
the older stella gets the more i love it.
and i think this is leading me to love pregnant women even more
because of their soon to be perfect prize.





i love snuggling with stella. her cheek against my cheek.
i love when she drools on me. (yes i think it's cute)
i love when i come home and i see her huge gummy (for now) grin.
i love seeing her daddy kiss her and talk to her.
i love her heavy breathing when she wakes in the morning 
and she concentrates so hard on her hands or feet.
i love seeing her experiment with her vocals.
i love nursing her when she knows i have what she needs and it will be ok.
i love baby wearing. she's happy and held and close to my heart. win win.

i enjoy folding her cloth diapers on sunday nights for the upcoming week.
i enjoy sharing my jogs with her in the stroller.
i enjoy laughing with mister john about her funny faces or noises.
i enjoy watching the new stages as they so quickly change.
i enjoy that one day she will just learn something new - just.like.that.
i enjoy hearing her deep belly laughs and making my girl laugh.


i love waking up and having her look up and smile in our bed.
i love when she gives daddy big smiles.


even though it's hard, i love caring for another human. fully.
unconditionally.
i love thinking of all we will do together and thinking about her being a big sister...
(NOT NOW! .... just, one day in the not near future)









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29/4/12
Unknown said…
I couldn't help but notice that you are doing incredibly good at this job.

P.S. I also teared up reading this. There goes my image :) Love you and Stella.

P.P.S. Thank you for being such an inspiration and making all the things that go with motherhood real. You've given strength Carey Harry.
29/4/12
carey said…
I still love your image!! Xoxo cant wait for Hakeem ;)
29/4/12
Ma Mom said…
I love that you love being a momma and I am your momma.
30/4/12
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