the happy place.

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it's sounds a little cliche of course, but that's where i am.

 i realize almost everything has an eb and flow so i'm not naive in knowing this place won't last forever.
however i'm bound and determined to keep this happy place ruminating with the realization that life ultimately has hurdles for everyone, some harder to jump than others.

 when mister john and i exchanged love letters we both expressed that this year, while it has brought our greatest joy, has also brought lots of challenges and learning experiences. we both agreed that these experiences have been for the better. 

 the last six months have been quite eye opening and i never imagined i'd be believing in what i believe today. life's interesting like that. mister john and i treated ourselves in some reiki sessions. These sessions have only helped make clear to us what we want out of life and how we want to get there. That "point b" that everyone seems to strive for...

 disclaimer: reiki isn't magic and i know our own personal growth plays a part in some of this too, but the point is i know our little sessions played a role. other disclaimer: because i am writing about my happy place doesn't mean the last six months have been nothing, but happy. (if you follow this blog, you know i keep it real).

 but, right now i can say our home is happier.
mornings of music and watching stella dance.
dinners at our table.
excited squeals of a baby.
helping hands.
supportive conversations.
our hearts are more full.

 i'm blessed to be able to share this journey with a mister that encourages this kind of growth.
i'm excited for our future goals; career goals and as a family. 

sometimes it takes a risk to get to that "point b" and simpler, calmer lifestyle that we strive for...





























*our neighbor is the best massuse/reiki master ever. go to her.




Comments

lindsay @littleonelove said…
Love this post, caren! You're so right in understanding that we go through seasons of utter happiness and other seasons of discontentment. I think part of the journey is knowing and appreciating these times. :)
17/11/12
Ma Mom said…
I celebrate this space.
17/11/12
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