at least i have her.

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i, like so many other blogger friends, haven't felt driven to post our day-to-day posts as they seem a little more trivial with such tragedy surrounding us. why does it take situations like this to remind us to create perspective in our own lives?

this morning as i was getting ready, my mother in law popped up to see if she needed to get bird. much to her surprise she was sleeping.

her face said "wow! she's still asleep - it obviously was a great nite for everyone!!"
while my face said "don't let her fool you. she was up twice and she is STILL sleeping only because i, ever so gingerly, laid her back in her bed so i could get ready"

and then i grumbled and groaned in complain mode about how she keeps getting up even though i implemented the "cry it out method" on the fly last week. (it worked for a night and then not, and then worked and then didn't... so far i'm not sure i buy this BS).

i proceeded to eat my breakfast and decided to watch this video.
not my best plan to keep my make up from running down my face. it'll get you to cry it out for sure.
i choked down a few tears while seeing the names of all those taken from our earthly world and realized wow, at least i have her. at least i have my baby. and suddenly her getting up in the night didn't make me aggravated. truth be told, i'd get up every night with her for the rest of my life if that's what it meant to keep her. at least i have her.

and i'll hold her & pray for those spirits that remain in our hearts.

 
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Ma Mom said…
Holding you tight
Day or night
You are my light
Along with those 26 angels in flight
19/12/12
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