what momma writes

so this is sort of weird, I'm writing about a haircut as if it's novel idea or a unique event ha.  I haven't written a blog entry in like 12,000 years and I'm opening up a draft to write about my hair. yep, I'm that cool, everyone. but honestly, let's just do this once. I've told people who asked and even strangers like the barista inquired. so there, while I'm not ashamed or opposed to telling people, I know it's only a matter of time of me getting tired of saying the same thing. oops. (kind of like when you are 9 months pregnant and everyone asks "when you are going to have that baby?" and you are like "I'm not Jesus." ... ok, so it's not really like that, but you get the idea of repetition off that wee example, right?! my story begins about 9 years ago when my dear friend shaved her head. she was (is) stunning. on a whim she got rid of her hair. I knew it would look fabulous, bc she has one of those faces that don...

I was daydreaming how much I WILL miss these days. In the dank basement, I do the laundry. Every week I do the laundry... same in and out, lots of stains and BO and I'm dreaming about missing these days. Maybe it was a defense mechanism of the moment as a large part of me detests laundry. And as I put the last dirty item in the washer I hear "Mom, I just spilled again!" Ha, I think to myself. Of course you did. Because that's pretty much what happens every other day... someone spills someone (ahem, Ana) bit someone someone whines someone (ahem, Ana) tornados through the house getting into, well, everything someone leaves half the cereal in the bowl to waste someone thinks everything is a game. all day long someone doesn't want someone to touch their stuff (and it's my duty to find solutions) someone horse plays at bedtime someone needs something. With everyone returning to school and with pictures plastered over social media, I'm reminded how ...

Stella is 4 1/2. These are what I could muster up to track the past 6-12 months... I should write the fiesty things she says too... most of these are loving and adorable to me haha! "You know what I am going to dream about? I'm going to dream about Jesus. I'm going to dream about Jesus coming back to life as a boy angel. And Great PaPaw too." "Oh, I'm sorry Daddy. I guess you'll have to share Mommy's coffee." -In a low toned sad voice after spilling all of John's coffee on the carpet. "I got in trouble today. Beff (Beth) put my on the stool by the snack table." -In regard to getting in trouble from distracting Dalia from her work. (Gotta love how honest she is!!) "I love my special time with Papaw." "AJ asks me 'why do you like me so much?!'" -We take it she likes AJ at school. "I know, I can re-trace my steps wiff you!" -In regard to losing something and me being annoyed becaus...

hi ana! happy first birthday!! of course i started 50 blogs to you and about you, but never followed through. so the last, i don't know, 6 months or so might be wrapped up here?!  it has been so fun seeing your little personality emerge even though you have shown you have quite the temper and impatience as your sister. (oh boy, another red headed temper, sweet!) but, i really do love seeing you, the ana who was chill and mostly quiet and observer ana for so long. the last 2 months or so you have transformed into a being that wants so badly to communicate even more so than you know how. here are my notes on you and your changes this year, but mostly the last 2-4 months: *you started crawling right around 9 months. it's more of an army crawl, but that's what you prefer. i rarely see you lift your big ole bottom up :)  although lately you've been lifting one leg like you are showing an interest in walking. a master puller-upper and think you are so cool when ...

over and over again, this theme rolls onward  in my life right now. i feel aligned, mostly positive, gracious and overall pretty happy.  there's been multiple times i wanted to sit and write this piece, but then there's this part of me that says "but what if things didn't work out as you said?" "what if you go broke?" "people will think you are tooting your own horn..."  but, honestly why do i care? this is me and if people get something from it, great. if not, also, great. same reason for me not going to use capital letters here... because i don't feel like it. like it or don't. negative self talk is so self deprecating. we wouldn't let someone talk to us like that, but we let ourselves talk us out of EVERYTHING! this is a little tale and peek into our life.  over a year ago john left his comfortable job with good benefits (no, really the best benefits there are, kind of benefits). he could do this job with his eyes closed,...

a letter to my child. that i will actually read to her. not just write to her. a letter that i will read aloud in order for her to know how much i love her and how sorry i am when i'm terribly mean and impatient. dear daughter, i love you. i think you are wonderful. i'm so happy you came to daddy and me - what a gift we have in you! i love your smile. it's so big and happy! when i see it, it makes me happy too! i love your gorgeous red hair. it suits you and it's fun to stand out! i love your eyes and your glasses. your eyes can look at my so deeply and i wonder where you've been before. your eyes sometimes show me sadness and sometimes share tears and that's okay too. i can tell when you are thinking really hard when i look at your beautiful eyes. i love your brain. it's so strong, analytical, curious and creative. every day you amaze me with your questions and your want to understand. i love your movement. we are all so different a...

Ana Girl, Nothing like feeling like you have no updates on your child's milestones. Just when I was thinking how I "overwrote" for your sister, I found myself referencing her entries for her school birthday book. So there, as a new mom, I likely did "overwrite" in the blogs for her, but sheeeew I'm grateful I did now that I went back and read. It was actually sort of neat re-reading her last 4 years. But, don't worry sweet girl, I'm still loving life with you even if I don't mark it all down. There's something kind of relaxing in not giving a damn about when you meet a milestone too. You're right where you need to be and sweet and demanding as can be! You are freshly 8 months and you've blossomed so much between 6 and 7 months. I don't know what happened, but you've become a little human. A little human that engages more and wants to communicate with meaning! You don't like food... I'm trying, but sort of giv...